Losing Sight and Perceptive.

Tomorrow is a mystery, but the future is always bright.

Scattered emotions, improperly managed feelings, and random thoughts constantly running through me has been life lately, finally had an epiphany, it all poured out on paper. Writing really is therapeutic, I’ve had too much on my mind: positive, negative, and indifferent. Thoughts on our current world, the future, my personal, professional, and romantic life. Today, I’m finally feeling more like myself again, all it took was hours of overthinking, constant confusion, cheeky deflection, depressing overanalyzations, and good friends providing doses of no sugarcoating tough yet gentle love. It’s been a life changing roller-coaster of a summer, with extreme highs and extreme lows; for the most part for the better.

It always amazes me how easily rationality and perspective get thrown out the window when you get lost in your head and emotions; quite difficult to get out of it. Sometimes a situation, a person, or something will stress you out so much that it throws you off or takes you off your game; you get distracted, you get lost, and you lose sight of things. Something can be the reason for your highs one minute, but then the cause of your lows the next. I don’t mind change, but when change occurs when everything seems to be going better than ever, perfect then seems to be the furthest thing from the realm of reality. It’s crazy how we can get confusingly blinded by something or someone that we forget our own value, along with everything one has to offer and has going for themselves.

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“Buried Alive” (Poem)

Buried alive, I love it
afraid, I’ve turned into
an undertaken workaholic
burned out, I am not
I want it, near, close
the light I see
I can’t be far from it
in time, I breathe, above I see
rows of long lasting blossomed trees
bear of overworked matured seeds
seams to seem
  it was all meant to be

A depiction of how I often see life: past, present, and future in a short poem.  I titled it ‘Buried Alive’ for many reasons, but I’m leaving it up for interpretation. It may have more than one meaning and open to different conclusions.

Photo By: Miiicha & Neruda

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Superheroes

What is the first thing you think of when you hear the word:

“Superhero”

You think of an individual who possess “extraordinary or superhuman powers,” who is dedicated to protecting the public. The prototypical superheroes that come to mind are Superman, Spider-man, and super-heroine Wonder Woman, but then there are vigilantes as Batman and Green Arrow without such super-powers who share other superhero traits. The majority of DC and Marvel Comics superheroes use their powers to counter day-to-day crime, while also combating threats against humanity by super-villains; or in Captain America’s case, Nazism or Communism, and for Thor, godlike or demonic creatures.

Recognizing that most characters do not strictly require actual superhuman powers to be deemed superheroes, it’s safe to say that superheroes do not only exist in comic books. So when I hear the word superhero, the first thing that comes to mind are not the characters created and found in fantasy/adventure fiction, but the extraordinary individuals in the world around us, whom possess superhero traits, who are positively impacting, contributing, making, and leaving the world  better than prior to entering it.

I think Dave Chappelle said it best when asked about Richard Pryor, he noted:

“The mark of greatness is when everything before you is obsolete and everything after you bears your mark.”

The same can be said about several people, personally, individuals like, Nelson Mandela, Jackie Robinson, Steve Jobs, Bill and Melinda Gates, Oprah Winfrey, Martin Luther, Muhammad Ali…, just to name a few, are superheroes in my eyes. But I believe the same can be said and true about any of us today, if not someday.

End of a Relationship and the Mirage that is Heartbreak.

“I am romantic. I have a lyrical soul. I can love under the best and worst conditions.” I stand proud and not ashamed to admit or show that level of vulnerability. The older I get, the more I realize that emotional vulnerability is not a crutch, but strength, nor make you any less of a man. “I like being part of something that’s bigger than me, than I. It’s good for your soul to invest in something you can’t control.” I’ve found that I tend to gravitate towards and feel most like myself when I am around, and part of a community of like-minded individuals sharing many of the same struggles, sensibilities, and sentiments; who don’t allow others to strip their happiness away from them due to their lack of it.

Being the hopelessly hopeless romantic that I am I found nothing more beautiful and worthwhile than: love, relationships, and romance. There’s no better feeling than loving someone as much, if not more than you should or do yourself, and those sentiments are reciprocated. Where you think about their wants, thoughts, and needs, not because you have to, but because you want and choose too. The type of love where they’re the last person you want to talk to before bed and the first person you want to see or talk to the second you wake up. They’re you’re favorite hello and worst goodbye, that “It Takes Two” can’t-eat, can’t-sleep, reach-for-the-stars, over- the-fence, and World Series kind of love.

With that said, I was not always a true believer in and of love, or one to show much affection. That is, until I fell in love for the first time.

“Be Cute, but Real in this Ugly World”

A look into NERD IN A JOCK™

I wanted use my first entry to tell you how and why I started this site, blog, and what I plan to do with it.

I first would like to thank you for visiting the site, for the love and support; whether in my personal life or social media gateways such as Twitter. I am very grateful, excited about what’s going on in my life, and what’s to come. Hopefully we have had a chance to cross paths on other social networks portals and you already have a better understanding of what I am about and some of the things that interest me. Now that the site is up and running I wanted to provide you with more information about not only what those interests are, but also what interests you, the readers, and the wonderfully diverse individuals I have and continue to come across.

The idea to create the site and blog came recently. I have always been an avid reader, and can get lost in the magic of words, but I was never much of a writer; unless it was computer software coding or I had to. So by no means do I consider myself a technical writer, but writing has become a wonderful and powerful escape from the trials and tribulations of life.

I always wanted to have a career that was part of my life, in other words, I always wanted the two to go hand and hand. I did not want the two to be separate from one another, and wanted to enjoy the fact that my career was a part of my life. I wanted a career that I appreciated and it appreciated me, one that got me excited and motivated to get to work, kept me focused and out of trouble. One that I could share with others, where I would have earned the respect of my peers, colleagues and everyone and anyone I came in contact with.